Writing

Sometimes I don’t really know what to write, and then I think oh, you shouldn’t write for the sake of writing, you should write because–because you’re trying to write something. Because you’re trying to convey something. Because there’s a story you have to tell, a thought to flesh out, a destination to get to. You’re … More Writing

Spot-n-‘Shot

This had been happening for a while, repeating numbers. At first, I figured I was going insane. Oh, how fun, I thought to myself. Sure love being a nut job. It’s my favorite pastime. Just add it to my OKCupid profile: I like long walks on the beach, and being a nut job. So I … More Spot-n-‘Shot

Attitude of Gratitude

August 2nd, 2021 I’m grateful for zany animations and surreal books that remind me I am cared for. I’m grateful for a roof above my head…. I’m grateful for morning co-worker conversations like today’s, where half the team talked about their dreams of owning land and building a home. (No farm animals, though, one of … More Attitude of Gratitude

To Grow

It’s a shame this book has been relegated to the bottom shelf of an aisle reserved for tarot users and palm readers My interest in psychotherapy has expanded from the typical Western psychiatric meds approach – muted dose of lithium and serotonin and dopamine – to something most decidedly not Western and thus Relegated to … More To Grow

Telepatía

Here we all were, strangers on a Saturday night, searching for produce, meat, friendship, camaraderie, poke bowls, bingsoo shaved ice Spent the night of meandering around, going to the Asian market square with the blindingly bright fluorescent lights, reminded of the three-story grocery stores in China Where I’d be bright eyed bushy tailed, eyeing all … More Telepatía

So Good at Being in Trouble, Unknown Mortal Orchestra | Animated

She was so good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So good at being in trouble So bad being in love From my music animation project, where … More So Good at Being in Trouble, Unknown Mortal Orchestra | Animated

2021 Books

This past year, I’ve mostly been reading fiction books. I used to read a lot more nonfiction when I was little, but now I find fiction more absorptive. It’s my way of thinking about the world without thinking about the world. Literary fiction, in particular, makes me tingle. Here are the books I’ve read in … More 2021 Books

Stories we Craft

One psychology article that stuck with me revolved around happiness and memory. How our happiness, or lack thereof, goes hand-in-hand with the stories we craft. The stories of our lives, the stories of ourselves. These stories help us create meaning and to make sense of the world around us. … More Stories we Craft

The Morning

Like a two year old, I’m starting to re-marvel at the mind, and how the people around us can only infer so much from the things we deliberately say. It’s like that quote from Murakami I always circle back to, whenever I feel tired or misunderstood or whatever: “I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.” … More The Morning

Daily Blog #474 : Of writing and telling people too much

I suppose in the end it’s a desperate struggle to make room for yourself in this world, by leaving behind stories, hoping they’ll suffice and be able to construct a near perfect image of our souls. A carbon dating for the experiences we’ll have buried. It’s terrifying, the yawning void. I used to be scared … More Daily Blog #474 : Of writing and telling people too much

Dreaming at 12,000 ft

We went to Breckenridge this afternoon, and it was all a series of serendipitous synchronicity. We had initially been hesitant to venture outside, since there were so many people on Main Street. Right as we found parking, after we went around in circles, it began to rain. And when it started to pour, all the crowds dispersed, as if welcoming our hermit presence. … More Dreaming at 12,000 ft

The One Where We Get Lost In The Woods And Stuck On A Steep Backroads Dirt Mound In The Middle Of A Storm

There’s an upper level to ruggedness. We all have one. Well. I hit mine today when we veered off the boulder-infested roads, dipped into a steep hill, sped manically through unpaved meadow, plowed on forward towards another steep hill, faced an intimidatingly 90 degrees towards the cloudy skies, and found ourselves staring at the physically insurmountable mound of dirt, unable to move forwards or back. … More The One Where We Get Lost In The Woods And Stuck On A Steep Backroads Dirt Mound In The Middle Of A Storm